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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

regrets

i know i promised to post here everyday, but i dont think i can keep it, especially when i have no idea what to post about since my life is pretty uneventful nowadays. i'm just stuck home watching movies and television series on dvd. i've finished watching prison break until the 16th episode of season 2 and i can't wait to watch the succeeding episodes. michael scofield is just too hot to miss. too bad the dvd my dad bought was just until ep16. now i have to buy season to all over again. sayang naman.

anyway, i have realized something today. (not that i rarely realize things.) you see, my cousin just started taking piano lessons today and my desire to learn playing the piano resurfaced once again. when i was little, i wanted to take classes that would develop or give me any talent. i took interest in ballet, drawing and painting, writing, and music. i especially wanted to learn to play a musical instrument. unfortunately, i never really got to pursue any of these interests since i thought the fee was expensive and i didn't want it to add up to my mom's burdens. eventually, my desire faded. i had other things to worry about in grade school: fitting in, my obsession with playstation, and you know... kid stuff.

after some time, i began to self educate. i struggled in learning how to play the guitar and i learned a little, but i soon realized i wanted to learn how to play the piano more. i knew there was no way i could ever get piano lessons so i gave up. i thought i would just get over it that quickly, but in high school every time we had our music class i would grow jealous of my classmates who knew how to play the piano. i grew even more jealous when i learned it was their mom who insisted they take lessons. my mom knew i wanted to learn, but she never asked me if i'd like to take lessons. i wished she had insisted. i don't blame her though. i wish i had not given up that easily. i wish gave more intrest in taking up piano lessons. now, i just think it's too late.

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